Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters
im still pissed. i thought i could push back all the thoughts but nooo, i just couldnt do it. i saw you in school and i felt like slapping you hard. okay, im turning cruel and evil. but i cant do anything now can i ? you totally spoilt your own image i had of you. some kind of caring person huh. take that and that and that and that. -keeps slapping and boxing you.
whats happening now ! i cant take the fact that you tell her. i dont understand why everyone is oblivious to everything thats going on around them ? dont you know that what you're doing is so hurting ? take her for example. it's her last year here. you've two more years in this school and you had to sit right ? you just had to. i mean, how selfish ? the disappointment she had was so obvious. dont tell me none of you saw it. gosh.
and i really cant take the fact that people just dont ever let you forget the past that you're trying so hard to forget. i know that it was her. we've spoken about our primary school days a million and one times already. even tho i've been dying to bring it up, i dont. i know how hurting it is, or how humiliating everything is. but guess you guys dont really know how much one tries to forget such stuff huh. everyone has some past that we try so hard to forget. guess there's no way to ever run away from it. it somehow catches up with you. /:
im getting so pissed & annoyed at every little thing thats happening around.
you not telling me.
you treating me like im dumb & stupid.
you showing your 'care & concern' by writing it down.
you asking 'innocent' questions not knowing how i feel.
you mixing with them.
you coming up with new 'policies'.
you not being bothered.
you always getting away with things.
the list just can go on and on.
ouch, i feel my heart hurting already.
i dont know if im upset, pissed, disappointed or. or. or. or. i really thought you were nice. i really looked up to you. but guess everything was destroyed huh. now who do i look up to ? you changed after you got your position. she says it's fine, you're of a higher authority. but HELLO ? you dont change just cos you've received a higher position. you dont go around bossing people just because you're of a higher position. so scoot and get lost. zhi ren zhi mian bu zhi xin.
you guys are lousy and you guys practice such double standards. so what if she* is one of your members ? that so doesnt give her* the right to break the rules ! so what if he*'s under your watchful eye ? that doesnt give him* the right to do whatever he wants ! that doesnt give you* the right to lie & constantly protect him. heeeellloooo ? so does this prove that everyone can also be so two-faced ? this is what youre teaching us. bleahh. get lost. get lost. i mean it, like nowwww !
mumster ! tell me that this is nothing but a dream. i'll wake up tomorrow and everything will go back to how it all was. oh i forgot, no A1 for chinese i cant go see you huh /: who cares, i still love you moreee <3
let your heart out.
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